I know its not just me. I know other people feel this way too. Some sort of emptiness, like they haven't fulfilled their life goals or dreams. These past 2 years i can relate to that. I've lost friends. I've lost what i felt connected to. I don't feel myself anymore and when i do, those slight moments, its bliss. I feel alive. I feel happy. I want to know what its like to feel alive again, to be happy to wake up and explore and learn, but i'm not sure when that will happen...I know it will though. This August i'm hoping to be in Minnesota living with my best friend. And somehow and i will make it happen, because its the only thing i have left to live for.