The way you make me feel...i swear its nothing like ever before. All i want is to be here, with you. But i can't. I swear its nothing like ever before..The moments we share, they're timeless, they're infinite. I swear its nothing like ever before, your smile, your hair, you. In the distance i see my 2 favorite things, the sunset and you. 

The problem is, my mother never thinks shes wrong, even when she knows she is. I swear i love her to death but sometimes she is the biggest pain to deal with. Once I tell her my biggest plan, to move in with my boyfriend, she's gonna ask me all these questions of how i'm going to do this or that. I'm sorry but i don't have the answer to everything. I just cant deal with her all the time.. shes to much but i love her and i don't want her to be sad... because i'm kinda all shes got.

I know its not just me. I know other people feel this way too. Some sort of emptiness, like they haven't fulfilled their life goals or dreams. These past 2 years i can relate to that. I've lost friends. I've lost what i felt connected to. I don't feel myself anymore and when i do, those slight moments, its bliss. I feel alive. I feel happy. I want to know what its like to feel alive again, to be happy to wake up and explore and learn, but i'm not sure when that will happen...I know it will though. This August i'm hoping to be in Minnesota living with my best friend. And somehow and i will make it happen, because its the only thing i have left to live for.